| Location | Coulsdon |
| Age | 13 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 02/10/1992 |
| Date of Death | 26/05/2006 |
| Visitors | 811 since 06/03/2009 |
| Creator |
my jay could light up a room with just a smile,he was always busy doing something,he was often said to be a real live wire,my life ended the night i lost my beautiful son,my life is so quiet now,not a single day would pass without my jay makin me laugh and at the end of everyday he would give me a cuddle n a kiss and tell me he loved me.i miss you son.
Happy Birthday In Heaven - by Winnie Lovett
"Happy Birthday Jay"
It's sure to be the best one yet,
Though you left us here behind.
Did you think that we'd forget?
Your cake this year, will surely be,
A beauty to behold.
With the icing made of Silver,
And the candles made of Gold.
Yes, your birthday in Heaven,
Will be such a grand affair.
And I know you'll look so lovely,
With a halo in your hair.
The Angels will come from everywhere,
To sing your birthday song.
And I know they'll be so happy,
That you've joined, God's Happy Throng.
No I can't send a card this year,
Or give a gift so fine.
So I'll just send a special prayer,
To that wonderful Son of yours.
Happy Birthday Precious Son - by Saralyn McAfee Smith
How melancholy now this day when you were born--
A day we used to greet with balloons
And streamers and song.
How I loved to see the smile on your face
And in your eyes
As you saw the surprises we had hidden away.
You jumped with excitement at the thought of
The party to come with all your special friends
And games and music and prizes and fun--
And, of course, best of all, the cake made just for you,
Embellished with your name and age
And all ablaze with candles.
Oh, the magic of closing your eyes
And making the perfect wish
That was sure to come true!
Now, the only wish that I would ever make
Can never come to pass--
For you cannot return.
A great longing to see you
And hold you and kiss you
Comes over me and brings me down.
Still, even in my grief, come flashes
Of memories that can never fade--
The sweetness of your smile and voice,
The goodness of your soul.
And deep within me rises again
The hope that we will meet once more,
In God's own time and place.
Happy Birthday, My Precious Son!
Saralyn McAfee Smith
happy 17th birthday
jay it's nearly your 17th birthday wish you were here auntie sam and your cozs ben, mac and alexis just wanted to remember you to everyone on your special day, you are always in our heart and thoughts and i wish i could bring you back home, love you honey xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
TINY TAPER
HI TINY TAPER I KNOW UR UP THERE PLAYING WITH UR FOOT BALL AND LISTING TO BILLEY JEAN MUM MISSES U SO MUCH THE WHOLE FAMILY DOES UR THE BEST BROTHER I COULD EVER WIISH FOR I LOVE U SO MUCH UR SMILE LIGHTS UP THE WHOLE ROOM AND DAY WE WILL NEVER FORGET U I REMBER WHEN MUM WAS IN THE PHONE TO SAM AND U KEPT WHISLING AND M UM KEPT ASKING U TO STOP U WOULD PRETEND U DIDENT HERE THEN WHEN MUM STARTED TO SHOUT AT U U RAN UP STAIRS AND I WAS IN MY ROOM AND U ASKED ME TO PLAY ON THE PS2 AND WE PLAYED NEED FOR SPEED I WILL NEVER FORGET SLEEP TIGHT SMALL SIS XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
my Jay
my darling today i heard that michael jackson has passed away,u loved his music so much we had billie jean played at ur funeral 4 u,i hope u get 2 meet up wiv him in heaven,i miss u so much darling,there r days when i jusy dont even know what to do nothing seems important ne more,i was told that it was your school prom the other night,i can just imagine you standing there all suited and booted i just know u would have been the best looking boy there,i know that u were missed by all ur friends,sleep tight my darling and be sure to stay close,i love u jay.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My Baby
i just couldnt sleep today is the 3rd anniversary of your funeral,it was this time 3 years ago i knew i had to start letting you go,i had to try and come to terms with the fact that we were never gonna see each other again and that thought has always been the first thing on my mind everyday when i wake up,will the pain ever go away?No,will it get easier as time slowly heals the pain?i dont know what i do know is i have never felt pain as bad as this before,i now know that im not living anymore just exsisting,you are and always will be my only sunshine just like the song i used to sing to u when u were a baby,i still cant understand why one of the only precious things in my life (my children)was taken away from me.I often picture u now as u would have grown into a handsome young man with ur stunning good looks,im so proud to have been your mummy even if it was for such a short time.I miss u so much my darling and know that the ache i had in my heart 3 years ago today and still have now will never heal or go away until im up there with u holding u back in my arms where u should b,i love u baby,sleep tight.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
jamie x
jamie, my best friend - my sunshine.
i miss your gorgeous little face and the good times we had..
i want your mum to no you got in contact with me, and i really hope she reads this and gets in contact with me.
i want her to no your there and all that other stuff you said..
jamie speechly, you are so amazing, and i just wish we had more time..
georgina, xo
To my little bro
Carnt believe its nearly been 3 years since you have been gone it still feels like yeasterday. people always tell me it will get easier as time goes on but i still miss you just as much if not more. its so hard to think i will neaver get to see your cheaky smile again. love you more than you will ever know your big sis x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x
thinking of you
Reflection
Another day for you to wonder, another day for you to mourn
It wasn't my intention to go before the coming dawn
My pain was deep within my heart and troubled head
It wasn't my intention to go without words said.
My frame of mind seemed normal, or so I heard them say
It wasn't my intention not to see another day
I did not mean to make you suffer or cause you so much pain
It wasn't my intention to never see you again.
Despair and confusion left my aching mind unsure
It wasn’t my intention to suddenly close life's door
If only I could give you reasons and brush the tears away
It wasn’t my intention to leave and not stay.
I did not mean for you to grieve, now left alone to cry
It wasn’t my intention to leave you, forever askinq why
As the burdens of life's worries slowly ebb from my heart
It wasn’t my intention to tear your soul apart.
Y. Docherty
You may not think the world needed you, but it did. For you were unique: like no one that has ever been before or will come after. No one can speak with your voice; say your piece; smile your smile; or shine your light. No one can take your place for it was yours alone to fill. Because you are not here to shine your light, who knows how many travelers will lose their way as they try to pass by your empty place in the darkness
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